I am a certified server and network technician as well as a journeyman in the toolmaking industry ( drilling, milling, CNC,... you know the drill ). Ever since 2004, when I finished my expensive education ( 20k+ € ) for technician, I must've applied about 300 times to companys, firms and stores....
"SORRY blahblah..., BUT YOU ARE OVER QUALIFIED blahblah... CURRENTLY WE SEE NO WAY FOR YOU TO WORK FOR US blahblah..., YOU WANT TO EARN MONEY TO SUPPORT YOURSELVES AND FAMILY AND HAVE AT LEAST A SMALL MEASSURE OF HUMAN DIGNITY? blahblah... GO F*CK YOUR OWN KNEECAPS AND STOP BOTHERING US blahblah..."
For the last 5 years I have gone through hell. I sold most of my worldly possessions to pay the bills, moved back in with mom, discovered the internet, discovered that I am gay, tried to commit suicide, began to overeat real bad ( 400 pounds ), managed to defeat my shame
and applied for the dole and social support, am currently in a clinic for the stabilisation of my mental state ( not the gayishness, thats ok ), hopefully will begin rehab and constant weightloss around summer......you know, Fel's stories and chapters, that kept comming sometimes early, sometimes late ( but never too late
), gave me something to look foreward to during these trying and dark times these past years... and now the economy has started to plummet on a global scale. You know how bad that is for an economy as export oriented as germany's ? REAL BAD... My doctor tells me I will require between 2 - 3 years to get my life back on track and achive my major goals like the weightloss issue, getting the excess skin surgically removed without looking like frankensteins monster afterwards, learning to love myself, finding a male friend or at least a fuckbuddy who would dare to love me...
I will try not to loose hope again...
